I am here, but not. Wanting but not having. Feeling but not saying. Alone but not lonely.
It’s been some time since my last post. This sounds suspiciously like the preamble to a confession, where I enter the confessional and spill my sordid deeds to the priest. Tisn’t though. First off I’m not Catholic and don’t really believe confessing my sins to another man carries any weight. My sins are between me and my God, or whatever Deity you may choose to believe in. But that’s just me, you have your beliefs and I have mine.
No, it’s only my ‘confession’ to you, my loyal readers. Those that chose to follow my ramblings, to see where this lunatic would take you, and perhaps get the odd chuckle or maybe a thought provoking idea. I love you for that, I truly do. My confession today is about my blogging.
I know I’ve been remiss. Many times I grabbed my laptop, or my iPhone, and thought “you know, I should post something”. The rubber never hit the road, as they say, I never followed through with the thought. Hope was not a plan.
I am ok though, I haven’t had a fall nor fallen ill. I’ve just been busy, and where I realize you should never be too busy to write I guess the drive to do that, to write, just carried less weight than the other things going on in my life. In actuality I’ve been feeling pretty good. I’m still on a reduced dosage of my meds and looking to get off completely in a month or so (whenever I run out of pills). No, I’ve been busy with ‘life’.
We just got back from Hawaii, my wife and I, along with our daughter and her family. We were enjoying the sun and surf, sightseeing, bonding (maybe too much bonding), and just generally trying to relax. I took just over 650 photos, most of my grandson Madden, and have all those to deal with yet. What a problem to have.
Also just prior to our departure on Nov.29th I purchased a domain name and began setting up a website. Since our return I’ve been fixated on getting that to a point where I feel ok with it, and then I began setting up an online gallery for all my photos. This required more software acquisition, installation, and set up. I’ve also become reacquainted with some family members and have had my interest in genealogy rekindled. So many things to do, so little time.
So the long and short of it is that my focus has been oriented toward ‘other’ of my many interests. Somehow in this cornucopia of things I like to do I still need to find that balance, a moderation of all things enjoyable. Til then I deal with my passions in the only way I know how, to try and do them all.