Be In the Moment

In the moment, live in the moment

Be IN the moment, LIVE in the moment…

“Life is a journey, not a destination.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

I don’t really know why this came to me, this idea or concept around how we should ‘live’ our lives. I have read a couple books on the topic and I think I’ve even wrote about it here, in Today, Live.

It is interesting (to me at least) that I wrote “Today, Live” almost 1 year ago to the day. Hmmmm, things that make you go Hmmmm.

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Stop and smell the flowers

Basically it means stopping and smelling the flowers. Taking note of everything that is happening to and around you, what you are doing at any given moment. Noticing and relishing in it.

If you are having coffee then smell the coffee. When you are eating your Eggs Benny then taste your breakfast. Don’t wolf it all down while you read the paper or watch the news. Live the moment, experience the occasion. If your are with someone then BE with them, not daydreaming about what you will do or say next.

Important stuff. Easy to say and hard to do, trust me. Too often during my journey through life, and my passage through depression, I have forgotten this basic credo. I strive not to forget again.

I won’t go into it much more than that, you are all pretty smart and can read between the lines. And again I don’t really know why I thought of it now.

Perhaps it’s because the sun is shining and it looks like it will be a glorious day today. Maybe it’s because I feel good and I want to remember the feeling, I want it to continue and be this way, until I don’t feel anymore.

I think that what I want right now is to be outside in the sun and fresh air, perhaps sitting on the deck or out in the front yard. It’s a tad cold for that at present but in a month or so it won’t be.

I also think about my parents and other loved ones like children and grandchildren, how time with them is SO important. I think of Aunts and Uncles, neices and nephews. Too easily we can get drawn away, into our own stuff, and we forget those special people to us. At some point those friends and loved ones won’t be there, the time to relish them is now.

In general I just want to appreciate my life, to know that I’ve had as much enjoyment as I could. I don’t want to end this life thinking “I should’ve”. I’m here now, I want to Be Here Now.

Enjoy your day!

Away, But Not Gone

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I am here, but not. Wanting but not having. Feeling but not saying. Alone but not lonely.
– me

I feel upside down sometimes, need change
I feel upside down sometimes, need change

It’s been some time since my last post. This sounds suspiciously like the preamble to a confession, where I enter the confessional and spill my sordid deeds to the priest. Tisn’t though.  First off I’m not Catholic and don’t really believe confessing my sins to another man carries any weight. My sins are between me and my God, or whatever Deity you may choose to believe in. But that’s just me, you have your beliefs and I have mine.

No, it’s only my ‘confession’ to you, my loyal readers.  Those that chose to follow my ramblings, to see where this lunatic would take you, and perhaps get the odd chuckle or maybe a thought provoking idea.  I love you for that, I truly do.  My confession today is about my blogging.

I know I’ve been remiss.  Many times I grabbed my laptop, or my iPhone, and thought “you know, I should post something”.  The rubber never hit the road, as they say, I never followed through with the thought.  Hope was not a plan.

I am ok though, I haven’t had a fall nor fallen ill.  I’ve just been busy, and where I realize you should never be too busy to write I guess the drive to do that, to write, just carried less weight than the other things going on in my life.  In actuality I’ve been feeling pretty good.  I’m still on a reduced dosage of my meds and looking to get off completely in a month or so (whenever I run out of pills). No, I’ve been busy with ‘life’.

We just got back from Hawaii, my wife and I, along with our daughter and her family.  We were enjoying the sun and surf, sightseeing, bonding (maybe too much bonding), and just generally trying to relax.  I took just over 650 photos, most of my grandson Madden, and have all those to deal with yet. What a problem to have.

Also just prior to our departure on Nov.29th I purchased a domain name and began setting up a website.  Since our return I’ve been fixated on getting that to a point where I feel ok with it, and then I began setting up an online gallery for all my photos.  This required more software acquisition, installation, and set up.  I’ve also become reacquainted with some family members and have had my interest in genealogy rekindled.  So many things to do, so little time.

So the long and short of it is that my focus has been oriented toward ‘other’ of my many interests.  Somehow in this cornucopia of things I like to do I still need to find that balance, a moderation of all things enjoyable.  Til then I deal with my passions in the only way I know how, to try and do them all.

Cheers

All Done and Done In

I’m back on the mainland staying at my daughters and my first annual sunshine coast tour is finished. I’m pooped and ready for a holiday.   The reviews are mixed but generally I’d have to consider the party a success.

I took lots of photos with both my iPhone and camera and have yet to download, organize, file, and edit them(or edit then file, I’m not sure).  I’m a little overwhelmed by the thought of the task but will make a charge at it once I get home.  Any suggestions or comments as to how best handle these tasks would be appreciated.  This particular shot I took with my phone as I was leaving Gibsons.

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Today I completed my walk through of the Dr. Sun Yat-Sen garden and attached park and as of yet the verdict is out.  I need to ponder my reaction to ensure it’s fair.

It’s not that I didn’t like them, because I did.  I suspect it’s more that I wanted to like them too much.  Anytime you have high expectations you’re bound to be let down, or that’s my experience anyway.

Well, as I said I’m a tad weary so I’ll say goodnight.  I for one will have sweet dreams.

Road Weary

The last couple of days have been long, or they feel like it anyway. Even though I’m enjoying the quiet time and solitude the driving is becoming a pain, literally and figuratively. My back and bum are getting sore and they’re telling me it’s time to take a break.

20120924-221214.jpgI’ve stopped in Gibsons for the night. I arrived a bit later than I had hoped and the weather hasn’t cooperated as far as sunsets or other nice shots however I got a few from the ferry.  I’ll see about posting some of the nicer ones from by dslr soon. In the meantime I’ll put up one I took with my iPhone. On the whole I’d have to say I’m pretty happy with the pictures it takes, not super hi-res but pretty good.

Tomorrow will be my recharge day with a visit to the Sun Yat-Sen Chinese Garden in Vancouver.  I’m excited, and hopeful it will lend me some peace.

Pluckin’ and Shuckin’, Oh Tis the Life

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Today was a pretty good day, as days go where you don’t have to go to work and you can pretty much just hang out. Oh the luxuries that early retirement affords.

I spent some of the afternoon pluckin’ and shuckin’, no was corn involved (shuckin’) but I did get in my share of pluckin’.  We have a few gardens that needed tending and I still have numerous plants and flowers in pots and all needed their share of attention.  Watering and weeding, the 2 w’s were the order of the day.

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shore by Pend O’Reille dam

Prior to any of this though I had to make a trip to a post office on the American side of the border to pick up a package we ordered a week or more ago.  We often get things sent there as it’s much cheaper than getting sent to Canada from the US.  More often than not the items come with free shipping and we pay no duty or taxes when crossing the border, probably due as much to good luck as good looks.  Today I picked up some solar screening from the post office and filled my tank with cheaper gas.  Kinda like a double header.

The sun was in a great position on my drive back and I got some photos of one of the hillsides in part sun and part shadow.  I think it will look neat, with some editing (yet to be done).  Time will tell.

DSC_0346It was only after I got home that the pluckin’ began.  I had a few Coleus to transplant, one for my Mom (one of the children under the stairs) and the other two for me.  Not sure what I’m going to do with so many Coleus in the house in a couple month as they aren’t perennials and won’t last the winter outside.  We get too much snow and it’s far too cold for them to survive.  They do make beautiful deck plants however and I’ll do what I have to to keep them going, which may include wintering with the geraniums and other annuals we keep going year round.

I also had to tune up my roses as they are getting rather ratty looking.  Whether that’s from lack of water, some other rose affliction, or just the way it is.  I don’t really know the cause but I’m banking on the lack of water at this point.  We’ve been on the road so much and Mom was looking after all the yard plants that I can’t be sure they got adequate watering while we were gone.  I’m sure she watered, just how much is the question.

All in all the day went well.  I never did make it to installing my deck handrails nor to any of the other tasks on my list, but that’s the price I pay.  C’est la vie.  Tomorrow is another day.

Tip Toeing Through Elysium Gardens

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Our time in Kelowna, this time around, is done.  We hung out with the kids, I took a couple walks, we bonded with our grandson, and certainly the highlight (for my wife anyway) was the Cirque Quidam show on Saturday night.  It was a great show but my back rebelled part of the way through and sitting in the folding chairs didn’t do it any favours.

It was part of a birthday gift for my wife.  We went for dinner, had a drink and then walked through a Japanese garden that’s downtown and near the stadium where the show was.  I found it (hope she did too) a very pleasant and relaxing evening.  Certainly Cirque was jaw dropping.

Even though I had trouble sitting through it the show was good entertainment and if you are at all interested in acrobatics, some audience interaction and amazing, some might say freakish, human contortions you would like this.  We sat on the floor about 9 rows back but in hindsight a seat somewhere in the bleachers would have been just as good.  On the floor you miss some things by being eye level with the stage.

DSC_0320We left to come home yesterday but before we departed town we stopped at Elysium Gardens, a local nursery and mixed garden venue.  My main purpose was to have a look at the Japanese garden there, something that is a new/old interest of mine.  I would really like to create a Zen garden, or other type of Japanese garden in our yard.  Something to bring peace and calm to our lives.  Honestly I don’t know how I’m going to do or take part in all the things I’m interested in.  My retirement has to be early in order to have time for all this stuff.

The gardens are certainly beautiful and while I was a bit disappointed in the Japanese garden portion of the grounds it was still a peaceful and relaxing break to the day.  The Japanese garden was just a bit smaller than I had hoped for.  All the gardens were certainly beautiful though, another place to visit again.

The trip to the gardens also gave me an opportunity to play with my new camera, a Nikon D5100 I picked up a couple weeks ago.  It’s another old/new interest, one that will enable me to take waaaay more pictures of our grandson Madden without having to use my iPhone.  I was really into photography 30 years ago and feel a strong urge to reconnect with the hobby.

DSC_0311I shot off about 50 or 60 photos at the garden and now have to decide the best way to file and manage both these groups of shots and the 200 or so I took of Madden before that.  Certainly any suggestions would be appreciated.  I’m thinking I should just register a domain, find a hosting site and be done with it.  Truly any ideas would be helpful.

After we arrived home we tried to determine our next course of action.  We would both really like to go out camping again but with house and home commitments, appointments for my Dad, and other necessary tasks I don’t know that camping is in the cards.

My wife will be back to work for a day or so this week and while she could commute from the local campsite it just seems like too much.  Perhaps we should just stay home.  I know we have some beautiful gardens here, perhaps I can tip-toe through my own tulips.

Tis Bittersweet, This day of Retirement

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Hmmm, what to write.  Whether ’tis nobler…..wait, that line’s been taken.

I’ve been pondering much of my day what to post or if to post, this day being the first day of the rest of my life so to speak.  It’s the first official day of my retirement, early retirement if it matters.  I tried to come up with something profound to write, something with some teeth in it, but alas it was not to be.  So I just wrote this.

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