Today is the first day back to whatever we call ‘normal’, at least our normal. Our Easter guests have returned home and the house is finally quiet after 4 days.
It is also the first day my wife has returned to work, after an absence of about 5 months. And, as a result, it is the first day I will be left to my own devices and alone in the house for the day.
I have chosen to begin the adventure with a walk, my wife dropped me off a ways from home and I will walk back. Of course one of the first stops will be Starbucks for a morning cup of joe. I deferred my normal coffee at home and thought coffee’ing’ out would be a nice way to begin my day.
The sun was up when I began my stroll but not too far over the horizon. Far enough though to cast some shadows and create some interest in the texture of the land. I like this time of day and you’ve likely heard me say that before.
As my wife’s cousin once said:
“It’s a good life we lead, isn’t it”
Yes Emory, it is. And it also feels great to be back to the normal.
I bumped into Gloria today. Well, I didn’t really ‘bump’ into her, but you know what I mean. I saw her, in Safeway.
At first sighting I didn’t recognize her. I was approaching the Starbucks counter to order my grande Americano, and chatting with my daughters friend, when I glanced toward the door and saw this lady that seemed somehow familiar. Now in hindsight I’m almost embarrassed to admit that but it has been about a year, or close to it, and in my defense I think she changed her hair colour, so that may have thrown me off. Funny I didn’t know her right off the bat because my previous relationship with her was a significant chapter in my life.
I started ‘seeing’ her maybe 2 or more years ago now. I am married but we met with my wife’s consent, she’s understanding that way.
Now, before you get the wrong idea I had best explain.
A few years ago I had finally reached the end of my long emotional rope, particularly at work. I felt depressed, unappreciated, and generally unhappy, so I went to my doctor to seek advice. Well, he interviewed me, gave me a questionnaire to fill out at home, then sent me packing to the hospital for a number of tests. Once I had completed the questionaire and the test results had come back to his office we had a second visit. There was nothing conclusive he said, nothing really abnormal or standing out that could cause me to feel that way. He had thought thyroid perhaps, or some vitamin deficiency, but I was normal, or healthy even. He recommended exercise, and perhaps avail myself of the ability to seek counselling, perhaps through my works EFAP (employee and family assistance) program. I did, and it was through that system I met Gloria. She became my counselor/therapist.
So to make a long story short we met for some time, and for the life of me I can’t remember exactly how long, but she has helped me in a number of ways. In almost every session I came away with something to think about, and some of them I’m still thinking about. I miss our sessions.
Bumping into her in Safeway I will take as a sign, as a signal that I need to re-connect.
I’m a big believer in fate, in the thought that things happen for a reason, that there are circumstances that are presented to us and if we see them, if we recognize them for what they are, they can lead us down the right road. They can guide us toward making the ‘right’ decisions, perhaps to choosing one avenue over another, and that one/correct way will lead us to the light (and no, I’ve not been smoking crack).
My sign today was seeing Gloria. She makes me remember from whence I came, my path, and the healing I’ve done. I’m close to the end of my journey and I feel so much better. I still have a ways to go but the healing has begun.
The mall is not really where I want to be. We left the kidlets, our daughter and family, and began the drive home when my wife determined she needed something she could only get at the mall. My future flashed before me, I knew where my day was headed, certainly my morning.
I shouldn’t begrudge her the mall visit I guess. We didn’t really have an opportunity to do any shopping as this was a short visit to essentially get some ‘Madden time’ and do a little babysitting so our daughter Ayron, and son-in-law Stefan, could get out and have a quiet day sans Madden. I guess what annoyed me was I purposely tried to get us on the road early so we do all of our 3 1/2 hour drive in the daylight. Leaving Kelowna around noon or later could seriously impact that desire.
All that said I spent some time in Chapters while I waited for her, browsing the shelves and perusing books I liked, heck even wanted to buy. I considered hitting Starbucks, and getting a coffee or Americano, but since I already had a couple cups of joe at Ayron’s I chose to forgo the treat.
I primarily scanned books on WordPress, and in those I specifically peaked at sections on child themes and self hosted blogs. If I understand it correctly a “child theme” is like a sub-theme of your blogs primary theme. More research needed obviously. I have this real yearning to get more involved in web development and that kind of thing lately.
I came away from the book store empty handed though. I couldn’t, I can’t, justify spending the $25 or $30 on a book I’m really only interested in 2 or 3 chapters of. Especially if the book is already 2 or 3 years old. That 2 or 3 years is a lifetime in computer related stuff. So empty handed I left, to sit on a mall bench awaiting my queen. If nothing else I could start this post, while I sat.
Well isn’t this interesting. Stopped at Starbucks again this morning for my first fix of ‘Joe’ and was met with a lengthy line. That’s not the interesting part (but if you think it is then that’s cool).
When I got to the head of the line I noticed they had another trainee working (also not the interesting part). However, in chatting up the Barista I tell him maybe I should apply, seeing as I’ve seen so many trainees behind the counter lately. He tells me to put my name in (that was the interesting part). Me, a Barista? Hmmmmm. And no it’s not me in the photo. I’m a tad…….more mature.
Further discussion with him told me that part time was available, about 10 hours a week. I suspect the hours wouldn’t have a lot of flexibility to them though, that likely you’d be bounced all over the place and perhaps wouldn’t have a lot of notice. If that’s the case it would mean an impact on my ‘Manny duties’, if they ever came about. Click on the link if your not sure what a Manny is.
Now I don’t think I’m particularly interested, or am I? I guess part of it is that my ego felt stroked and that’s always a good feeling. Whether he was serious or not I can’t say, but when I was leaving he did say “I look forward to seeing your application on-line”. I just don’t know if I want to work, at least not yet. After all I retired so I wouldn’t have to.
I think he was just teasing me, what do you think?
Well I’m at it again, I stopped again during my morning walk for a cup of Starbucks coffee, I’m ‘joe’ing again.
Whether this will become a regular stop of mine, part of my routine, is yet to be seen. I can say it’s a nice break but at $3 bucks a pop for a grande Americano I need to give it some serious thought. Being that I’m a man of leisure now, a retired person, it begs the question as to if this is where I should be spending my “hard” earned cash. I tell myself when I reach the Starbucks Gold status I’ll stop. After all isn’t that what all addicts say?
It also provides me some socialization which is another good thing for those of us that are aged and perhaps infirm. While I don’t really consider myself aged OR infirm I believe the socialization aspect applies equally to anyone who by their circumstances may not get out much.
That could apply to me, the not getting out much. I have many interests, perhaps too many as my ongoing challenge is to equally divide my time among them. Maybe not even equally, just apportioning “some” time to each. This is part of my ongoing effort to find balance.
One thing the morning walk (not the coffee) does give me is an opportunity to see what’s going around me, the beauty of nature and life’s goings on. I’ve commented on this before and it’s no less true now, we are surrounded by beauty and awesomeness. I am so grateful, perhaps I need to comment on what I’m grateful in my posts, much like I did in my “Morning pages”.
That’s another thing on my “list”, get back to writing in my journal. So many things, so little time. Help me please.
Now here’s some blatant advertising, a quick shot of a double shot. Americano that is.
I am part way through my morning walk and thought today perhaps a little coffee break was in order.
Now this is where I become more than a little perturbed. Prior to writing this particular paragraph I had another paragraph, or two, composed (doing so on my phone) and when I went to save/upload the words of wisdom the upload failed and all my work was lost. I’m taking that as a sign, quit while you’re ahead. Never fear though cuz I’ll be back.